The Measurement of Love

Far from my mind, but close to my heart
Away from your touch, but feeling closer as we part

Feelings I feel, that are foreign from the inside
Feelings I see, that only you can give pride

Always on the front and never let the back be my guide
Always having you near, to be more exact right by my side

God’s great creation of land and water can seem to move us away
But his greater creation of love will allow us to never be astray

Love you I do and Love you I always will
The Measurement of Love is not measured by distance, but by the way I give

Love's Best

I used to love and love at it's best but now I just love and leave at it's best up to the rest
I am fatigue for love is getting heavy and hard for me to carry
The weight that it carries on my heart is sometimes unbearable, but I do manage
What is it that I can do to do more than just love
I want to love at it's best
I want to get back to flowers and massages
I want to get back to the long night conversations that were about, nothing
I want to get back to the love making that made no sense
I want to get back to love at it's best...I guess since it's so heavy, I just need to start working out more so that I can carry it and do it at it's best!

"Love is not Love until it's loved at it's best"

Poetic Thoughts

Sitting amongst the living, but feeling no life for what the living speak of is only what one without life would speak. The tone that is used is G-flat for that's a tone without God. The words that they use are of elementary, but without the children. Why is it that I sit amongst the living and feel no life? Why is it that my heart is weary and my mind is misunderstanding this stage of my life? Why is that I believe in what I believe in, but seems that what I believe in doesn't believe in me?

Moments

Visions within time are all that I have. they are all that seem to guide me to that place that I want to be. That place where there is just you and me. A place where my head and my heart are on the same page. A place where the depths of my thoughts are infinity. A place called...Home. "Home is not where you pay rent, home is where you heart is at peace and your mind is at ease"

Bianca's Vineyard

D.E.A.R. Johnetta

Life as you know has been better than bitter sweet
It's been lived to the ultimate by the defining of you that's so unique
If I could relive it all over again, I wouldn't change one view
Because that would alter the real love that was shown without seeing what I saw in you
Love at first sight is said to be seen by those who are not so bright
I guess you can call me slow because I did the same with you after that first night
I have nothing but good memories of you including the ones that didn't seem so well
I found beauty in them due to the fact that they were with you as I fell..(in Love that is)
Some things in life are just hard to do and some are not
This letter is not one of them because you gave me all that I got
This is not my way of saying goodbye, but hello with a twist
Drop Everything And Read this Johnetta before I become missed.

Beneath Your Touch

I have been touched many of times and will be touched many times more
But the touched I received yesterday was touch that I wanted to explore
To see what it was that made this touch feel so, so, so,....
What is it that I want to say
This touch that I received has taken my thoughts and words away
I know what I felt and am still feeling as we speak
But when I try to explain it, more than just my knees get weak
My tongue gets numb and my thoughts give way
My vision becomes blurry and my swagger begins to sway
My heart beats to a different rhythm that I cannot understand
My soul shivers to the same beat as I feel it again and again
If this is love, then let it continue to make me feel as I feel now
But I forgot...you are love, so continue as you were!

The Scent of Essence

Ravishly longing for divine intervention for I have been contemplating on not just making love to you, but the many ways that I can recreate love making.
Wanting you so close to me that when you take a deep breath my chest expands.
Feeling your scent of essence as you breeze through my mind in despair.
Delivering your fantasy as mine has been delivered when you delivered my soul.
Leaving my feelings alone as I replace them with yours causing The Scent of Essence to become the breath that I breathe.

"Some scents smell better if you use your heart to smell them"

Loves Back Door

Enter if you must, but be not perplexed
Visibility is clear, but my existence is annexed
Authenticity can not yet be better defined
But by the comfort of my divinity that fulfills the divine
Heights I have measured, but my reach is unknown
Degrees are measured by Kelvin, but I by skin tone
Awaken me if you must, but prepared you must be
The Back Door is the entrance, but the Front Door is the key

Four Knees, One Prayer

The Desires of Fidelity

I Know Becasue I Don't Know

...she ask, "How do you know that you love me?"..He responds...
I know because I don't know...
I don't know why I feel the way I feel...
I don't know how to explain it because I have never felt like this before...
I don't know what the next day may bring...
I don't know if you will leave...
I don't know why the sky is blue...
I don't know why the sea is so big...
I don't know why the sun shine in the day and the moon shines at night...

There is a lot that I don't know and neither do you, but just because we don't know doesn't mean that we stop believing, doing, or even having faith in what we do know
...because sometimes what we don't know was always known.

"The beginning tells it all, but only if we don't pay attention to the end, first"

The Journey of Sand(s)

Laying upon the sadden, or should I say deeply blue ocean which brought me here, I am excited. As washed up as I may seem, I am without a shadow of a doubt, pleased. As fervid as I feel and look, I am cool with all that I am. As rough as I have been all of my days, I feel smooth. My life consist of nothing but rough tides, hot days, and being washed up. But each and every day, I am awaken by a cool breeze that touches me by way of a soft wave. And when I open my eyes, I can see as far as time has been around and the view that I see is worth it all!

"If you look beyond the present, you will see your dreams"

Saturdays' Breeze

Stepping into the day as you step out of the night
Drifting into the melody of a perfect silhouette sight
Giving of myself until myself has no more to live
Living the life of luxury with the pennies of love you give
Seeing the morning view through the eyes of the night
Delivers me into an anomaly that's beyond heavens height
Dawn has set and mine eyes have been blessed
By Saturdays' Breeze that blew in Sunday's Best

Beauty is Simply Beautiful

Lovely silhouette nestled underneath my skin
Only to discover the completeness of beauty that's deep within
Hollow drifts away as fulfillment begins to set
Calamity is no more for tranquility has paid it's debt
A breeze of fidelity runs through the essence of my thoughts
As complexity fills my head, in which this you bought
Feelings are complex, yet I am still null
Because your beauty is simply, simply, beautiful!

Beloved Primavera

Lost souls seem to find there way when the path that has been traveled has your foot prints in it. Sadden hearts seem to rejoice whenever your presents is some where near. Vintage humanity journey to the land of adolescence with just the thought of you. At last, you are here and everything is at it's best. But how do I know that it's you when it's you that I can't see? How do I know that it's not just the thought of you, this time around?...Ahhh, I hear the flowers bloom and see the birds singing, therefore I know you have arrived for they are your favorite sight and they only respond to your touch.

Heavens' Tears

Slumbering within the gates of what is said to be the key to eternity or should I say everlasting love. Awaken me not for I am enjoying what my mind has created for my heart to feast upon. Journey, if you may, with me to see what I see in not just myself but in you. Seeing the unbelievable believe and the unreceivable receive. Seeing the words of your heart written within the debts of my soul. Seeing heaven open it's eyes to see you enjoying what it has set out for you to enjoy, love and then giving you it's approval by shedding tears...tears of joy!
"Sometimes rain is not meant for you to cover up, but uncover so that you can receive heavens sign of appoval, tears of joy"

A Place I Found

I have found that place that I was looking for. That place that I saw that had no door. The place where my heart is at ease and my mind can rest. The place where everything I do, I do it to my best. The place where there is no need for maps or GPS. The place where fear is extinct and there are no test. I have found a place to make a brand new start. But there is one place I will never have to find again and that's right there in your heart.

My talk with God and my plee...

How did I end up in the situation that I am in? How did I end up not having my own place? How did I end up not being able to pay my bills? Is this the cause of trying to make more money? Because that's exactly what I did. I wanted to make more money to do the things that I wanted to do to make my life better. I wanted to get myself out of debt and start saving as much as I could so that I could one day start my own business. Now that every thing is so miserable and my life is so chaotic, I now question my decision and ask myself, "did I not put God first?" Is this the reason that all of this happened to me and happened so fast. I have always believed in God and I can't lie and say that I have always put him first because I haven't. Did I put my eyes on money and not on God? Did I believed more in my talent and my ability and not his? All of these questions I ask myself and I also ask God. Is this the reason why you put me in the situation that I am in? I use to tell myself that I didn't deserve to be in the situation that I am in because I have been a good person and always have looked out for others sometimes even before I looked out for myself. But then I have to face reality, I am not perfect and I have done wrong and I deserve to be punished just like everyone else. My sins are no more better than that of a person who has done wrong and did it intentionally. Am I hurt because of all this, of course I am and it has humbled me to see that I am not in control, but God is. I say to you this day God, I am sorry for all the sins I have committed and I ask that you forgive me. I apologize for all of the bad things that I have done to other people. I also apologize and ask that you forgive me for talking about people in a nasty way. I ask that you forgive me for having negative thoughts and mean thoughts about others. I ask that you forgive me for not allowing you to do as you will with me and I ask that you forgive me for not believing that you can create riches that my heart desire. Lord, I ask that you take my hand and lead me to the place that you want me to be and I ask that you put me in the place that you have for me. I could ask for this job and that job, but this time Lord, I am going to step out on faith and ask that you do as you will. My faith has not been as strong as it should be, but it has gotten stronger due to the places that you have taken me and I thank you for that. It has been difficult, but I must say that it has made me a better and more humble person, but most of all it has brought me closer to you and it has renewed my faith and for that I am thankful. If going through what I have been going through is the cost of being closer to you and renewing my faith, then it was well worth it and I truly thank you for it. I have never stop believing in you and I know that you know this, but I haven't been lifting you up like I should. So in this talk, I ask of you to do as you will and I will get in the passenger seat and let you drive. All I ask is that you give me strength to make it trough this journey that you have me on and while I am on this journey, if I happen to run into "good times" I ask that you give me strength to not forget what you have brought me through and not to forget to continue the journey with you as the driver and director. I ask that you not let me slack off, but rather push harder. Thank you for listening to me and thanks for all that you have done for me and like I said before please forgive me for not putting you first and not putting it all in your hands.

Just some thoughts

Pillows of heart ache that bring hardness to my soul
Dampened are my tears as my feelings grow cold

Shallow plays beneath the gates of forbidden intimacy that appeals to the longevity of the entity that gives it life and laughter which brings a smile to that sadden frown that is bestowed upon the untruhful lies that were told only to provide a safe haven for the wonderful ninth wonder of the world that exist in the hearts of the unfaithful that want to be faithful but can't because of the closed thoughts of the wanna-be faithful goers..........but are they truly faithful, since they want open their thoughts to the unfaithful?

"Faithful begins with faith which begins with belief which begins with God which begins in the heart which begins with you"

The Birth

I don’t want to make love to you, I want to make you to love
Making love to you is merely putting love before you….
Making you to love is putting you first, even before love….
So making love to you is not merely as exciting as making you to love
Because that means you are closer to me than love…so lets not make love tonight…lets make you!!!!!!

5 am

When thoughts occur, words appear
When feelings feel, your somewhere near

When the sun breaks day, light is born
When your not around, all hope is gone

When the Spring rolls near, flowers bloom
When the winter comes, your still in June

When God made Adam, he then made Eve
When you chose me, it was hard to believe

When I love you and you love me
That's all we'll need, til eteternity

Abbie

With grace all around us as triumph overcomes defeat
So does your love for us outshine our deep and darkest belief

Like early morning dew that lets us know that a day has begun
So does the smile that comes from you which lets us know that God isn’t done

When fear is heavy and lurking and tragedy is at its best
Your gentle heart and comforting soul makes these times seen worriless

Through the work you’ve done and lives you changed, how could we say, “thanks to Abbie?”
Not a card nor candy nor diamonds nor pearls express how much you mean to our family

A mother’s love is a love untold, but many can hear exactly what it says
“To this behold, my child is my soul and let her be of good things through all her days”
(B. Richardson)

It’s your love that has kept us and brought us from whence we came
So we thank you, love you and most of all adore you as there is beauty in a name…
Abbie

The Beginning of February 14th

“Why did God create something as powerful as love?”
Why would he create a creation that feels so wonderful when in and hurt so bad when without?
Why would he create something that changes the world with just the mention of it?
Then it hit me, he created it twice. You see before he created man thee was already love there because he had to love us in order to create us. His second time creating it was when he created woman. He couldn’t call it love again so he had to give it another name. He must have said to himself, “Love is lonely and needs company.” If you think about it, it really makes sense. That’s the reason why women always want affection, time, companionship, intimacy, kisses, hugs, etc. All of these are associated with love

So, today I take the time out to thank you for being the reason for the existence of Love and for keeping Love company as well as God designed. Candy, cards, not even diamonds could express how much I appreciate, love you for that. That’s why I wrote this, because diamonds are brought and sometimes lost unlike these thoughts which you will remember until the end of time!
Thanks you and Happy Valentine’s Day, the day that you created!