The Revitalization of my Life-Day 66-My Wake Up Call

Yesterday me and my wife were having a discussion about life and how things are. I started talking about how I was back in the day. I started telling her about how smooth and suave I was with the ladies. I didn't want her to get the wrong impression, so I told her that I didn't have a lot of women, I just had a few women who wanted to get with me because of the type of guy I was. I dressed nice, I was goal oriented and I treated women with nothing but respect. I didn't drink or smoke and I didn't have any kids. I was spiritual and valued life. All of these qualities made me a hot commodity. She looked at me and asked me, "so you thought you were the perfect guy huh?" I told her that I didn't think I was perfect, but I did think that I was close to it. She looked at me with this look that said yea right. I proceeded to tell her that I never proclaimed to be perfect nor will i ever claim to be, but I do strive for perfection. I don't think she got what I was saying so let me see if I can explain it a little better here.

When I was six years old, my mother passed away. My great grandmother raised me until I was sixteen and then she passed away. The two most important women in my life were gone before I graduated high school. This was a devastating for me. After my great grandmother passed I didn't want to go on with life anymore. I was lost and didn't know what to do. She was all I had and all that I knew. She was my best friend and I didn't realize it until she was gone. She was the one I confided in. I could talk to her about anything and she wouldn't tell anyone. We had conversations about life that know one, till this day, don't know about. The day after her funeral I sat in my room just thinking about what I was going to do with my life. I sat there for a while wishing I could talk to her and get her advice. I knew that she wouldn't lead me wrong. I was thinking so hard until I fell asleep. In my dream she spoke to me. She told me that had to keep going. She proceeded to tell me that she would be with me and to just do everything she had taught me. I was so happy to hear from her that I didn't know what to do. At that moment I told myself that I would treat every women that came into my life the same way I treated my great grandmother. I wanted to do this because it would remind me of her and I would get that same feeling that I got when she returned to me in my dream.

Every since that day, I have done just that. I have made sure that every woman I ran across was treated like a lady. I am not just talking about women that I was involved with or wanted to get involved with. I am talking about ALL women, even those that were married. If I saw a woman who needed help, I would help her. If I saw a woman that was down and out, I would buy her flowers. If I knew of a woman that needed financial assistance, I would provided it for her even if it was my last. I did this because it made me feel good. I did it because it reminded of my great grandmother and the promise I made to myself. I was determined to be a good man. I made sacrifices that I didn't have to make this happen. While all of this was happening, I didn't realize that I was preparing myself for marriage. I was grooming myself for my wife. When I realized this, I went at it harder. I started doing research on women and what they liked and disliked. I would sit and talk to all different types of women so that I could get a clear understanding of what women really wanted out of a man. My great grandmother always told me to be the best at what ever it was I was going to be. She told me that if I were going to be a drug dealer, to be the best at it (she really did tell me this-but she wasn't telling me to go a sell drugs). I took this to heart and whatever I did, I always gave it more than what was required. I took it upon myself to be the best man there was because my great grandmother told me to do so. And I also wanted to out do my father because, hell, I didn't even know who he was. I knew his name and had seem him a few times, but I didn't know him. So I made up in my mind that I was going to be a better man than he was.

All of these factors played a role in me becoming the man I am today. I don't proclaim to be perfect, but I work damn hard at being the best at whatever it is that I am doing. When I decided to get married, I had made up in my mind that I was going to be the best husband there is. I told myself that I was going to treat my wife better than any man had ever treated his wife. I think it's hard for my wife to grasp this because she probably hadn't run across a guy as determined as I am at just pleasing his woman. When I talk about the type of man I am, she sometimes think that I am patting myself on the back and sometimes I do but it's only because I work so DAMN hard at being the man that I am. That's like getting paid from work and not buying yourself any thing that you want. If you work hard for something you deserve the rewards for it. Now don't get me wrong, I don't go around talking about how great I am, but if it comes up, I express myself by saying, "yes I am that good, but I've worked very hard to get this way." I make it clear to everyone that I work hard to be the person I am.

I am not a conceited person and anyone that knows me know this. I am very giving and kind. I would give the shirt off my back and have done it a few times for a fellow man. I have always been a hard worker and will always be one. But I do take pride in what I do. If I work hard, I play hard. I don't brag, but if I do, it's because I had worked extra hard on whatever it is I am bragging about. I was told that it's a time and place for everything and I believe this. When God created this earth, it's said that on the seventh day, he rested. Even God sat back and said, I have done a great deal of work, let me sit back and chill and enjoy what I have created.

I am not perfect but that doesn't mean that I can't strive for perfection-K.J Swint

The Revitalization of my Life-Day 65

Woke up this morning feeling tired. I was diagnosed with mitral valve prolapse last year and the doctor put me on some medication. The medication causes your heart to slow down there for causing you to feel tired. It doesn't happen all the time but every now and then, I feel fatigue. This has been one of those weeks. But when this happens I have to tell myself to keep going, keep pushing and don't let anything stop you from doing what you have to. That's why as soon as I finishing making this post I am going to get on my new 'Perfect Sit-up' and just work it out.

This is just the way life is some times. You are going to have some mishaps and you are going to have some set backs but you can't look at them you have to look at how you're going to bounce back from it. What good is it going to do you by sitting there and focusing on the problem if you're not trying to find a solution. This is not math. There is no equality of sides. When some thing happens assess the situation and then do something about it. Spend the majority of your time fixing what is wrong and not talking about what happen to you. STOP moving your lips and start moving your feet. A guy once told me a story about a man and his son. The guy would always walk around town telling everyone how less fortunate he and his son where. He would tell him there story of how the mother left them and how he had lost his job because he had to choose between taking care of his son or working. He didn't have the money to pay for daycare. This went on for several months. The guy would tell his story, then pray to God and ask God to order his steps. All while this was going on, the man's son was listening. Finally one day after he had done his routine of telling his story and praying his prayer to God to order his steps, his son got down on his knees for the first time to pray with his father. The father was kind of shocked because his son was only eight and he didn't think he really understood anything about praying. When the boy got down on his knees to pray this is what he said, "dear God, instead of ordering my father steps, I think you should move his feet. And also help him to tell a story of happiness instead of telling that same sad story about us. Remind him of how much time we spend together everyday talking and laughing and praying to you. He is sad God and I don't want my father to be sad, but I am happy because we get to be together and do things that we didn't do before my mother left. So God, move his feet and don't order his steps because it's not getting us anywhere. Amen." The father was stunned. He couldn't believe what his son was saying and further more he couldn't believe what he had been doing all this time. He finally realized that he was hindering himself. He realized that he was asking God to order his steps but he wasn't moving his feet.

Are you asking God to order your steps but you're not moving your feet? There is no way that you can move forward if you are doing this. We ask God to go above and beyond for us but the question I pose to you is are you going above and beyond for yourself? Are you really giving it 100% everyday after you pray? There is only so much God can do and will do. He gave us life and choice and the ability to think. With this alone, we can get a lot accomplished. Yes, there are some things that occur that only he can handle, so let him handle those things and you should handle everything else. God didn't give us his love and the ability to pray to him for it to be a crutch. He gave it to us for it to be a blessing and a wonderful thing to add to all of the other wonderful things he has given us-hint: LIFE! So the nest time you ask God to order your steps, ask yourself, "am I moving my feet after I ask him to order my steps?"


"Why ask for something when you have the ability to create it?"-K.J Swint

The Revitalization of my Life-Day 64

I must say that I am excited today for two reasons: one is because I am still on track with working out and two because my perfect sit-up will be arriving today. Yes, I ordered the perfect sit up only because I tried the perfect push-up and it worked. Most of the time when someone hears about me working out, they look at me as if something was wrong. The reason for this is because I weigh about 165 lbs and I have no stomach. Everyone always say to me, "why are you working out?" What they don't know is that you don't have to workout just because you are trying to lose weight. Working out is done to stay in shape and have a healthier body. It prevents you from having health problems in the future. And also it prepares your body for the future when your metabolism slows down. Then there are a lot of other reasons why it helps to just work out even if you are in shape. One, it gives you energy. Two, it keeps your body defined. Three, it keeps you from worrying about how you look. Four, it gives you confidence to know that you are doing something to better yourself.

Never get comfortable with how things are because at any given moment, things can change. You have to keep things fresh and up-to-date. It's amazing how certain things we can include in our routine and others we just throw out the window. Working out is one of those things that we will throw out the window, especially if we look like we are "well put to together." Well, I am slim and don't have an ounce of body fat on me, but I am still working out and will continue to do so because I care about my body and I love the way it makes me feel. And just because it looks good on the outside doesn't mean that it looks the same on the inside.

Don't get comfortable with yourself, keep trying different things and keep trying to improve yourself. Do the same thing when it comes to your relationship, marriage, school work, job, sex, work out, relationship with God. Do it with everything that you do. The one thing that I learned from college is that you can never improve yourself too much.

"Treat yourself the same way you treat your car; filled with gas, oil changed and insurance paid-basically MAINTAINED!"-K.J Swint

The Revitalization of my Life-Day 63

I must admit, I am a little groggy this morning but I am up and running. Even though I am on day 2 of working out, I feel that I have leaped on a big hurdle. The reason for this feeling is because of what I did last night. I got off work even later last night and I had to make a stop. By the time I got home it was about 8:30-8:45pm. On top of me getting home late, it was raining. Here it was the second day after I had made a commitment and it decides to rain. I contemplated for a minute and then I thought about what I posted yesterday and I said, "let's get it!" I geared up and put on a hoodie and some gloves and I begin to run. As I journeyed through the wet street and the rain in my face i started thinking. The first thought that came to me was about how people always find a reason to stop before they find one to keep going. I started asking myself questions like why would a person do themselves that way. Why would you give up so easy if this was something that you really wanted. I guess I answered my own question. You have to want it bad enough and if you give up that easy, you didn't want it bad enough.

Then I begin to think about all of the things we do that we make a sacrifice for that could possibly bring confusion to our lives. We sacrifice our bodies sexually despite the consequences. It's as if we are willing to make that sacrifice for the THAT feeling for a moment but won't sacrifice time and energy to better ourselves for more than just a moment. This to me is AMAZING! When I thought about this, I made up my mind that no matter what was going on, I was going to make it my business to work out. I don't care what time I get home or what is going on. This is how we have to be about things that we want to accomplish in life. My wife asked me once, why is that when you come across some extra money, something always come up. I told her it was because you don't prepare yourself during the time when you don't have the extra money. You have to prepare yourself even when you don't have. In order to do this you are going to have to make a sacrifice.

We have all of the resources to make anything happen. All we have to do is just do it. I refuse to tell someone ten years from now about something I could have done. I refuse to sit around with the fellas talking about all of the great ideas and great books I could have written. At the end of the day, ten years from now, I will be telling stories about how I endured the hard times and got the book finished. I will be telling stories about how I ran in the rain to break the cycle of stopping. I will be telling stories of how I made a choice to not go out drinking with the guys for a few weekends in order to get this book finsihed. I refuse to tell of the "could have been" stories. I will be telling of the "is stories." These are the stories about what actually happened in order for me to accomplish my goals. Will your story be of "could have been" or "is?"......It's your choice, what do you choose?

-I will make it-K.J Swint

The Revitalization of my Life-Day 62

All I can say is that I feel GOOD! I feel WONDERFUL! I am finally back on track. Yesterday I started running again. While I was at work, I started thinking about the last post I made to this blog. I started thinking about how generous I had been to my wife and other people. I then told myself that it was time that I did something for myself. But then the kind side of me kicked in. I told myself that I should check with my wife and make sure she didn't need anything. To my surprise, she didn't. She told me that she was good and didn't need anything at the moment. I had no excuse now. So I took the money that I was going to give to her and brought me a pair of running shoes. I was like a little kid in a candy store. I went in the store and found the cheapest running shoes that were durable (just in case my wife has a last minute something that she needs).

Now that I had gotten my shoes, it was time to get back to revitalizing my life physically. When I got home, I changed clothes, suited up into something very warm and I went at it. When I first started running, I noticed it was COLD! I started thinking to myself, 'what in the hell was I thinking?' But then I heard that voice again. It started talking about endurance. How those who were less fortunate than me were getting things done. Then I started thinking about single mothers that don't have any help from anyone but God. Then I thought about people with different types of diseases and how they just keep pushing through all the medication and therapy. Then I thought about my great grandmother who raised four boys into men with only a sixth grade education as she dealt with the tragedy of losing her daughter and granddaughter (my mother and my uncle's mother). She took care of her child's children and grandchildren. Then I thought about a man who hung from a cross, bleeding and in pain. He endured so much pain and for what? All because of the good things he had done. Instead of trying to be "the man" he just sat back and forgave all that had persecuted him. Then he took it to another level. He told his father, "forgive them for they know not what they do." Once I thought about all of this, It didn't seem so cold after all and I was half with through running my route.

Then the pain started to kick in. I started feeling the pain of running in the cold. My chest started burning and my nose started running and guess what...I kept on running as well. I was determined. I realized at that moment that whenever you are doing something to improve yourself, you are going to experience pain especially in the beginning stages. It's what a lot of people call that "good pain." It's just a sign that lets you know that you are doing something right. After the run was over, I was tired. It was late (around 8pm) and I had other things I needed to do. I just knew that when I got finished showering and eating I was going to be done for the night and that's just what happened. I got sleepy and told myself that I had done enough for the day and I deserved to just go to bed. But then that voice kicked in again. This time it spoke of time. Then I looked at the clock and realized I had two hours before the normal time I usually go to bed. I just got up and started on my projects. Instead of finishing one, I finished two. I was shocked because I was so tired after I went running.

Don't let yourself be the reason why you don't achieve your goals. Stop making excuses when you have everything you need to make things happen. And when you don't have the resources, step out on FAITH and get them. If your standing on FAITH, you will not fall. And don't think that you need to start something at the beginning. What I mean by this is don't think that you have to begin working out at the beginning of the year or the beginning of the week. Your beginning is wherever you start. Why wait until the first of the year to start something? What good is it going to do you to wait all that time? WAKE UP! Wake up from the fantasy world and step into the world of reality and make a change in your life .Yes, it's going to hurt like hell and yes it's going to take some time, but what are you losing as you do this? NOTHING! If I can make a sacrifice and get out in the COLD and run after getting off work late, so can you. Find your motivation. It can be your children, your spouse, your friend, your dog, your pastor, your mother, your grandmother-it can be anything as long as it motivated you to get it done. My motivation is my WIFE! I want to look good for her and also be a better person for her. What's your motivation?

"True faith is believing what you can't see not seeing what you can't believe"-K.J Swint

The Revitalization of my Life-Day 61

I woke up this morning feeling GREAT! I thought about how far I had come since I started revitalizing my life. Not only has it made me a better person but it has created an ore that makes others happy as well. I was thinking just last night that I hadn't worked out in a few months. Working out was one of the main reasons for me writing in this blog. It was suppose to keep me focused and motivated. I have had plenty of opportunities to get out and run, but every time I do, I forget that I need some new running shoes. I must admit. I have had plenty of opportunities to buy me a pair but every time I get the chance, I see something that my wife either wants or needs and I say to myself, "my shoes can wait, but her happiness can't." I have done this a few times and each time, I get the same feeling, a feeling that happiness just can't define.

This is the part of my revitalization that wasn't included. I had no idea that things like this would come up. I was mainly focusing on myself and getting myself together. What I didn't realize is that once you get married, the other person becomes so much a part of you until whenever you do something to improve yourself, you actually improving them. It's only been 61 days, but I have done so much to improve my life, our life. As I sit here and look back, it's amazing; it's motivation. To know that I can sacrifice my wants and needs for the wants and needs of my wife, is motivation to me. This gives me the drive to make a way to get those running shoes so that I can add to my revitalization.

Sacrifice is one of the main ingredients in life. To show that you are willing to give up something of yours for someone else, is the ultimate. Just as God gave us his only son and his son gave his life. Imagining giving your life for someone you don't know, knowing that you have the ability to stop yourself from dying. Imagine the suffering. Imagine all of the pain. And to think, we don't even want to sacrifice something minuet as time or money. We let pride take over. What if Jesus would have let his pride take over. As a matter of fact, what if God let his pride take over every time you ask him for forgiveness or ask for him to bless you? If we know that God wouldn't do us like that, then why would we do another human being that way? Sacrifice is the key. Give up something of yours today for someone else. I guarantee that you will feel a feeling like none other. This is one of the reasons why I am such a happy person; because I sacrifice for my wife and family all the time. What will you sacrifice today?

"Doing for others feels better than doing for yourself"-K.J Swint

The Revitalization of my Life-Day 60

Today is one of those good but emotional days for me. The reason why is because if my great grandmother were living she would be 100 years of age. She was the fruit of my life when she was alive and is still that same fruit today. She planted something in me that scientist can't understand. She was the definition of a woman to me. She was a straight forward person. She didn't hold anything back. Whatever she was thinking, she said and if you ever wanted to know the truth you knew to call her up and ask her. She didn't mine hurting your feelings. I didn't understand how she could be so frank with people and not spare their feelings but then turn around and be there for them when they needed her. I didn't understand it until now. She would rather be the one to take the heat and have people mad at her rather than let that person get their feelings hurt by someone that didn't care about them. She was the neighborhood mother. She took care of me, my two uncles and my brother at home and over 100 others outside of the house. She made sure we went to church every Sunday. She also made sure that I was in choir (and no I can't sing at ALL), on the usher board and took part in every program that the church had. She was just a remarkable woman. I will forever tell of how she was the key in me being the man that I am today. Every time I come up with a quote, write a poem, post to my blog, give advice, etc. It's all because of her. Like I said earlier, she instilled in me something that science can't dissect, archeologist can't discover and philosophers can't philosophize...she instilled in me the art of pure love-love that needs no reason to love other than it's just the RIGHT thing to do.

Here is to a woman that taught a man the ways of life. Happy Birthday Catherine "Auntie" Burks and thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you for raising me the way that you did and I will always love you until I can't love anymore and even then, I will leave the legacy of your love before I leave so that it will continue on forever. I love you mama, I really do and keep watching me, I will make that dream of yours come true, I promise! Love you ma!

"A mothers love...there's is no need to say anything else!"-K.J Swint

The Revitalization of my Life-Day 59

I must admit, it's COLD outside but I am not going to let it stop me from doing what I do. This morning was a little different. I woke up with a lot of thoughts on my mind. It was like my thoughts were on a highway that had no speed limit. I guess I can begin by telling you what my thoughts were.

The first thought that was on my mind was in the form of a quote-"It's hard to hide behind excuses when opportunity is always around." It bothers me when people start making excuses as to why they can't get something accomplished when they have all the resources and opportunity to make it happen. Every time I would hear someone make an excuse about not accomplishing a goal of theirs, I would sit back and evaluate the situation. After a careful evaluation, I would then give them an alternative suggestions as to how they could accomplish their goal and get around their excuse. I noticed every time I did this, I would get this weird look (as if I shouldn't have said anything) and an awkward silence. For a while I starting thinking that maybe I wasn't being sensitive to their situation. But then I thought about what my great grandmother use to tell me all the time. She would say that most people don't want to hear the truth, especially when it's about them not doing something that they should be doing. My great grandmother was smarter than her sixth grade education level gave her credit for. I see now that wisdom can't be measured by your level of education but can be measured by your level of life experience. I was trying to be a good friend and give some good advice because I just thought maybe they hadn't thought about the idea that I had given them. But I see it doesn't work that way. I guess that is why teachers aren't appreciated until after the student has been taught.

I think all of this steered from the fact that I don't like the word "settle." This is probably the only word in the dictionary that I really don't like. I don't like to settle for ANYTHING. I think that it's pointless when you have so many opportunities. The reason why I dislike this word is because I almost settled at one point in my life. When I was dating my wife, I would go all out for her. I wined and dined and even did the little things. I wrote poems, left cards on her door step and sent flowers all the time. I had all grounds covered. Well, one day we were talking about the type of man I was and she made the statement, "you're not perfect." When she made this comment, she made it with a conviction in her voice. It took me by surprise because I was under the impression that the way that I was treating her was the way that every woman wanted to be treated. This made me reevaluate myself. I started downplaying who I really was. I even stop talking about things that I did for her and I also stopped doing all that I was doing. I thought to myself what is the point. But then one day I was watching television and saw a show they were doing on great athletes. Micheal Jordan name came up and they acknowledged him as the greatest player to play the game. Then they started showing his work ethics. How much time he put into practicing and working out. They showed how diligent he was when it came to paying attention to details on the court. I immediately thought to myself, "if you practice hard at something, you will be the best at it and if you are, you just are."

I had to come to grips that I was the Micheal Jordan of dating. I had worked very hard to get to where I was. I paid attention to what women wanted. I asked women a lot of questions. I sent flowers and gifts to women that I wasn't dating. I even went out on dates with women just to observe. I put in a lot of work so that when I made a commitment to that special someone, I would be able to make it right. I did all of this so that I wouldn't have to go through all of the turmoil that I had heard people speak of when they spoke about dating. I figured if I worked hard, sacrificed and did what was right that I could avoid all of the extra drama. So once I got over the comment she made, I was back at being me again. I refuse to let someone dictate who I was. It wasn't my fault that I fell close to being a perfect guy. What a minute, it was my fault. I was close to being a perfect guy because I had practice being a perfect gentlemen. I thought to myself, "forgive me for trying to become a great man, but it's not going to stop me."

This is how I think God intended for our life to be. It should be what we make it. If he wanted it any different he wouldn't have given us the ability to make choices. Stop making excuses and stop settling. Don't let your life make you, start making your life. I refuse to say that this is happening because that's just the way life is. No! Life is what you make it. You don't revolve around life, life revolves around you. YOU ARE LIFE...LIVE IT!

"It's hard to hide behind excuses when opportunity is always around"-K.J Swint

The Revitalization of my Life-Day 58

Well today is my off day. Yes, I am excited, but I do still have one project to finish. I am at Starbucks right now working on it and hopefully by the end of the day I will be finished. When I got up this morning I was on a mission. I was determined to get to Starbucks very early and start working on my project. After I got up and got my thoughts together, I noticed that my wife hadn't unpacked her bags from our new years get away. Instead of asking her why she hadn't unpacked, I just unpacked it for her. I placed everything where it needed to go and even put the suitcase away.

Even when you are on a mission and have a lot of things to do, you are never to busy to do something to help someone else out. especially your spouse. I could have easily caused an argument by asking her why she hadn't unpacked her things. But what I did was really think before I said something. I thought about our vows which stated that we are one. When I thought about this, it made me realize that her clothes were my clothes as well. So in essence, I was putting my clothes up. Thinking before I say something makes my life a whole lot easier.

Don't wait for something to happen before you take action, just take it! Stop waiting on things to pan out like you see on t.v; make your own show. It really feels good to be the star in a show that you are directing...simple because you determine how much camera time you get and how much you get paid!

"Don't wait for something to happen, make it happen because you are the director!"-K.J Swint

The Revitalization of my Life-Day 57

It's a new year and time to put the past behind and look forward to what we can do to make things in our life better. I haven't posted anything to my blog in a while because I had to finish a few projects before the end of the year. I literally finished them on new years eve. But it was well worth it because all of my clients were very pleased with my work.

Well, I am still going forward with my revitalization. I think I did a good job by starting the year off trying to revitalize my life. For the new year me and my wife went to Atlanta to bring in the new year with some friends. My wife is one of those people who loves to go. If she could she would go out of town everyday. I knew that this was something that she would really enjoy because she talks about it all the time. When my friend called me and asked me if I wanted to come and hang out with him and his wife for the new year, I told him sure. In the back of my mind I was thinking that this was a trip that I didn't include in our budget. Christmas had just passed and I was thinking to myself how is this going to happen. The smart guy in me wanted to tell her that it wasn't in the budget. But the lovable guy in me wanted to just give her what she wanted because she deserved it. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. I had told her many times before that we just couldn't afford to go out of town at the time she asked because there were other things going on that were more important. She just couldn't understand this because she thought that her wants were just as important and to a certain degree she was right. I knew that I was making the right decisions for us and I just couldn't get her to see it. With this trip on the line and our budget not in a good place for this trip; this trip wasn't doable. But then I heard this voice tell me "this is a great opportunity to get her to understand what you are trying to do, but you will have to have faith and really believe that I will take care of you." I usually fight the voice because every time the voice speaks, I am not in the position to do the things that the voice tells me to do. But this time I just said o.k. We packed our clothes and headed off to Atlanta. On the way there she asked me, "are we going to be able to afford this?" And I replied, "no." She was shocked. She said if we can't afford it then why are we going. I told her that I wanted her to trust and believe in me more. I told her that every thing that I do, I do to better us not hurt us. She was kind of upset and she got a little uneasy because she said that she didn't want to be out of town without any money. I told her I got money, I just wanted you to see how it feels so that you will understand me when I make the decisions I make for us. Truth be told, I didn't have any money, I was riding on PURE FAITH. She was at ease when I told her I had money. Needless to say, we had a GREAT time and everything worked out just as the voice (God) told me it would. Everything worked out in our favor.

We have to sometimes believe in our counter part even when we can't see what they see. We have to know that they wouldn't do anything to harm us if we know that they love us like they say they do. And on the flip side we have to have a strong faith base to make somethings that we don't think we can do, happen. This taught me a valuable lesson. In order to make somethings work, you have to put yourself in a position where you are not in control. You have to show God that you have faith that he will make a way. You have to make sacrifices that may seem frivolous. They may seem frivolous to you, but they just may be the key to unlocking that door that you have been trying to unlock for a long time. I stepped out on FAITH and it made a way because it unlocked that door that I had been trying to open for so long. Make a sacrifice, not just for yourself, but for the other person. Stop thinking about you and start thinking about them. Focus on them the same way you focused on yourself. Take control of your thoughts and make the best of your life. God gave us the ability to choose-why not make the best of it and choose to make life better, not just for yourself, but for the one that you truly love.


"God gave you the ability to choose-use it and choose happiness, not for you, but for the one you love-this will make happiness for you more enjoyable"-K.J Swint