I went running again and I am still on track. But today while I was running, I started thinking. This is a little off subject of what I usually blog about, but I just have to get it off my chest. About half way through my jog, the thought of selfishness ran through my head. The reason for this is because of the dream I had last night. It involved a couple and a several situations involving selfishness or something close to being selfish. The woman was all into the man. She was loving and caring and thoughtful. She was always looking out for his well being. The guy was only thoughtful when needed. He only did things for her when it was required (birthday, special occasions). But the one thing in the dream that stood out to me was when they go out, he is this very affectionate guy and shows everyone that's around how much he is into her or should I say in love with her. But when they get home, he is the complete opposite. He treats her like she is his roommate. The affection he shows in public, he doesn't show at home. This part just stuck in my mind. I started thinking, why would this guy be all affectionate and seem so into his lady in public, but not at home. Then it hit me!
I guess some people are big on how they look to other people. Which leads me to believe that when this happens, a person is all about themselves. Even though it may look as if they are about the other person, it's only to make them look good. I thought this was amazing! How could someone be this selfish? What is the point is bringing someone into your selfish world when you are all about yourself? These are the questions that I started thinking about after I woke up.
Just had to get that off my chest. So if you are selfish, please don't drag someone who is not selfish into your selfish world unless you are willing to make adjustments to your lifestyle. The thought of this makes me feel uneasy, so I can just imagine going through it. Wait until you are ready and if you don't know if you are ready, ask your true friends, they will tell you the truth and if you don't have any true friends, just ask GOD!
"Selfish is the only thing Love is not"-K.J Swint
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
The Revitalization of my Life-Day 95-The CHANGE-24
For over a week now, I have been getting up every morning running. Every since I made that one little sacrifice, my life has been different. I now see that I have time to get done what I need and want to get done. I feel better throughout the day and it gives me a chance to relieve any stress that I have. Now I will be honest with you. I didn't want to go running this morning because it was a little cool outside. When I got outside, I said to myself, "there is no way, I am going running in this cool weather." Then as I was stretching, I thought about the times when I ran during the winter months. If I could run during the months when it was really cold, I could easily run during an unusually chilly spring morning. I took off running before I convinced myself not to. As I was running I began to realize why I didn't want to run in the cool weather. It's hard to run when it's cold because the cool air really burns your chest as you take in the air. It's not a good feeling at all. So, while on my journey, I started thinking about how I was going to feel when it was over. How my chest would be burning and it would feel as if I couldn't catch my breath for a while. Then it all made sense...
I was able to endure the physical pain and get beyond the psychological pain by preparing myself for it. When I ran during the winter months, it enabled me to face cool weather. But the only way that I was able to endure it was to go through it. We will never know what we can do if we never put ourselves out there. I knew what i was up against when I stepped outside and it was chilly. I knew that there was going to be pain. But I also knew that the pain would only last for a little while and the benefits of feeling good would out weigh the pain by a long shot.
There is going to be pain in your life. It's going to hurt. It's going to be uncomfortable. It's going to be miserable. But when it's all over, it's so well worth it. You will feel better and life will seem easier to handle. Every since I have started running consistently things all around me have began to change. My time seems to be more plentiful. My mood seems to be peppier. All of these changes occurred because I was willing to endure "temporary good pain." Are you willing to endure this temporary pain to have a permanent feeling of enjoyment? Or are you going to sit there and hope that every thing will just work itself out?
"When God said wait on him, he didn't mean just stand there and do nothing when he has given you the opportunity to do something"-K.J Swint
I was able to endure the physical pain and get beyond the psychological pain by preparing myself for it. When I ran during the winter months, it enabled me to face cool weather. But the only way that I was able to endure it was to go through it. We will never know what we can do if we never put ourselves out there. I knew what i was up against when I stepped outside and it was chilly. I knew that there was going to be pain. But I also knew that the pain would only last for a little while and the benefits of feeling good would out weigh the pain by a long shot.
There is going to be pain in your life. It's going to hurt. It's going to be uncomfortable. It's going to be miserable. But when it's all over, it's so well worth it. You will feel better and life will seem easier to handle. Every since I have started running consistently things all around me have began to change. My time seems to be more plentiful. My mood seems to be peppier. All of these changes occurred because I was willing to endure "temporary good pain." Are you willing to endure this temporary pain to have a permanent feeling of enjoyment? Or are you going to sit there and hope that every thing will just work itself out?
"When God said wait on him, he didn't mean just stand there and do nothing when he has given you the opportunity to do something"-K.J Swint
Thursday, May 12, 2011
The Revitalization of my Life-Day 94-The CHANGE-23
WOW! Today was exhilarating! It started the same way it did yesterday. I got up and went running before I came to Starbucks. Now when I got up, I didn’t feel like running and I was still asleep. But once I my feet hit the pavement, it was well worth it. Yes my legs were hurting and there was a point during the run when I wanted to turn around and WALK back home. But I didn’t. I kept running until I got to the end. After I showered and got ready for work, I felt GREAT! It was like my mind was refreshed. I was able to think clearer and I had a lot of energy. When I got in my car to leave, I looked at my gas needle and it was on full; as I let the garage door down, I just looked to the sky and said thank you! I was happy about the little things that I had right then. To be able to exercise, take a shower, put on clothes, get in a car that’s full of gas and go to Starbucks (then to work)…I am one BLESSED individual. WHOOOOOOOOO!! That was me screaming from being excited.
As I was running I was thinking about what motivated me to just start working out again. I starting thinking and the only answer I came up with was self motivation. Sometimes you have to just be motivated from within. I have found that self motivation is the only motivation that last. When someone else motivates you to do something, it doesn’t last as long. There are some cases where it does, but for the most part, it doesn’t. What made me think about self motivation was a comment my aunt Patty made this past weekend. She was talking to a friend of hers about why she was motivated to lose weight. She said that she was tired of looking the way she did and she was tired of getting tired easily. When she said this, I looked at the expression on her face and you could see the drive in her eyes. She was determined and she did it. Even though I was self motivated to get out and run this morning, her expression when she made that statement, gave me the energy to keep running when my legs starting hurting.
Self motivation should be the jump start to get you going on anything. And let the outside motivation be the energy to keep you going through the hard times. Once you unleash that self motivation, you will be amazed at what you can do and how you feel. Right now, I have so much energy! Just think, you can feel the same way I do, but first you must release that self motivation beast from within……
“Get back to living life and stop letting life live you”-K.J Swint
As I was running I was thinking about what motivated me to just start working out again. I starting thinking and the only answer I came up with was self motivation. Sometimes you have to just be motivated from within. I have found that self motivation is the only motivation that last. When someone else motivates you to do something, it doesn’t last as long. There are some cases where it does, but for the most part, it doesn’t. What made me think about self motivation was a comment my aunt Patty made this past weekend. She was talking to a friend of hers about why she was motivated to lose weight. She said that she was tired of looking the way she did and she was tired of getting tired easily. When she said this, I looked at the expression on her face and you could see the drive in her eyes. She was determined and she did it. Even though I was self motivated to get out and run this morning, her expression when she made that statement, gave me the energy to keep running when my legs starting hurting.
Self motivation should be the jump start to get you going on anything. And let the outside motivation be the energy to keep you going through the hard times. Once you unleash that self motivation, you will be amazed at what you can do and how you feel. Right now, I have so much energy! Just think, you can feel the same way I do, but first you must release that self motivation beast from within……
“Get back to living life and stop letting life live you”-K.J Swint
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
The Revitalization of my Life-Day 93-The CHANGE-22
All I can say is thank God! Yesterday and today have been very vital moments in my quest to revitalize my life. On yesterday, when I got off work, I decided to go for a run. I had a lot on my mind and usually running helps me to sort out my thoughts. Now I have to be honest, I haven't been working out like I set out to. I have been working on other things and letting those assignments get the best of my time. I tell myself that I either get off too late or don't have enough time in the morning. Well, last night brought all that to a halt. After I finished running, I took a shower and just relaxed. I sat back and did some real thinking. After all of this thinking I went to bed, but before I went to sleep, I grabbed my bible and just starting flipping through it. I finally ended up in the book of Proverbs and this is what starting me on my new journey. The verses that I read spoke about knowledge and understanding. I can't tell you verbatim what the verses said, but I can tell you that it made me get up this morning and go running.
Now mind you, I went running last night. But that didn't stop me. I had this thought while I was sleeping. the thought was that I had enough time to do the things I set out to do but I had to rearrange some of the things I was doing with my time in order to make everything work out. Instead of going to Starbucks every morning, I could use that time to go workout. Not only could I work out, but I could also post to my blog afterwards because I would have plenty of time left. Going to Starbucks is just a mental luxury that helps me get my day started. So this is why I decided to get up and at this morning. Well, once I finished running, and showered, I noticed my wife was still at home. Now usually, we leave at the same time. When I saw that she wasn't gone, I knew that I still had time to go to Starbucks. This was amazing! Here I was fussing about not having enough time to do what I needed to do and what I wanted to do and now I am doing both. It's amazing what happens when you give up something to get something. Sometimes you end up getting it all.
I was willing to give up going to Starbucks to start back working out and once I worked out, I saw that I had time to do both. You never know your limit until you push your thoughts beyond the unlimited world set in your mind. I had a thought and turned it into reality and it took me beyond what I thought I could do. I am at Starbucks right now feeling good and planning for my next projects. I refuse to let what I call the voice of "logic unreasonableness" take over me. This voice is the voice that gives you every reason as to why you can't get done what you need to get done. It gives you logic responses and it all makes sense. Like when it tells you that you don't have time. You really might not have time because you have a lot going on. You have school, kids, a husband, a wife, cleaning, washing and everything else I didn't name. And this makes sense. But what it makes you forget is the ability you have to rearrange and make do. This is what I took from the book of Proverbs when I read it. Gaining the ability to understand. When you try to understand and gain knowledge, you get better at getting closer to God and being the human being that he wants you to be. If he can give me the ability to understand, I can at least put this understanding into action.
What will you do now that you have a better understanding? Will you let the voice of "logic unreasonableness" get the best of you or will you take God's gift of understanding and make things happen in your life?.....
Now mind you, I went running last night. But that didn't stop me. I had this thought while I was sleeping. the thought was that I had enough time to do the things I set out to do but I had to rearrange some of the things I was doing with my time in order to make everything work out. Instead of going to Starbucks every morning, I could use that time to go workout. Not only could I work out, but I could also post to my blog afterwards because I would have plenty of time left. Going to Starbucks is just a mental luxury that helps me get my day started. So this is why I decided to get up and at this morning. Well, once I finished running, and showered, I noticed my wife was still at home. Now usually, we leave at the same time. When I saw that she wasn't gone, I knew that I still had time to go to Starbucks. This was amazing! Here I was fussing about not having enough time to do what I needed to do and what I wanted to do and now I am doing both. It's amazing what happens when you give up something to get something. Sometimes you end up getting it all.
I was willing to give up going to Starbucks to start back working out and once I worked out, I saw that I had time to do both. You never know your limit until you push your thoughts beyond the unlimited world set in your mind. I had a thought and turned it into reality and it took me beyond what I thought I could do. I am at Starbucks right now feeling good and planning for my next projects. I refuse to let what I call the voice of "logic unreasonableness" take over me. This voice is the voice that gives you every reason as to why you can't get done what you need to get done. It gives you logic responses and it all makes sense. Like when it tells you that you don't have time. You really might not have time because you have a lot going on. You have school, kids, a husband, a wife, cleaning, washing and everything else I didn't name. And this makes sense. But what it makes you forget is the ability you have to rearrange and make do. This is what I took from the book of Proverbs when I read it. Gaining the ability to understand. When you try to understand and gain knowledge, you get better at getting closer to God and being the human being that he wants you to be. If he can give me the ability to understand, I can at least put this understanding into action.
What will you do now that you have a better understanding? Will you let the voice of "logic unreasonableness" get the best of you or will you take God's gift of understanding and make things happen in your life?.....
Friday, May 6, 2011
The Revitalization of my Life-Day 92-The CHANGE-21
It's been a few days, but I have good reason for not posting to my blog. I have been preparing a few poems (3) to recite for two events this weekend. Yes, it's that time of year again. Mothers Day is Sunday (just in case some of you forgot). I have learned that writing a poem is easy but remembering it is even harder. Most people think that since you wrote you should be able to remember. Well, this is not true. I write a lot and it's very hard to remember everything that I write. So, this has been a challenge for me. And let's not forget getting nervous. I don't know why I get so nervous to do something I love doing. I love bringing joy to people with my words. I love to see people smile at something I created. You can't place a dollar value on a smile. I guess I am afraid that I will disappoint my audience and I won't get that smile. I don't know what it is. All I know is that my nerves get the best of me sometime. This is why I have to put so much time into learning the poem well enough to flow even through my nervousness.
I am in Starbucks right now with some headphones on listening to myself over and over until I go to work. I'm trying to get it down pack because I am getting nervous now. So wish me luck because I need it. Happy Mothers Day to all and remember that Mothers Day can be any day you make it.
K.J Swint
I am in Starbucks right now with some headphones on listening to myself over and over until I go to work. I'm trying to get it down pack because I am getting nervous now. So wish me luck because I need it. Happy Mothers Day to all and remember that Mothers Day can be any day you make it.
K.J Swint
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
The Revitalization of my Life-Day 91-The CHANGE-20
Well, it's been a while since I posted. Only because a lot has happened in between. A tornado destroyed a few cities in our state and Obama announced that Bin Laden had been killed. A lot of emotions are now running around the city and world. But during these times I have learned that we need to sit back and think and take care of what needs to be taken care of. Don't worry what's going on on the other side of town, just do what you need to do to get the job done. Don't worry about who has what and what they're NOT doing. Just do your part and keep moving. During tragic times, we have to be understanding and considerate of others. At the same time we need to just play the hand that was dealt to us. When God sent anyone on a mission to carry out what he ordered them to do, he told them not to worry about others, just do as I say and you will be ok. They wouldn't believe him and then he would have to show them just as he did with Jonah. He has given everyone another chance and the opportunity to assist. If you have another chance, don't worry about all other things. Be thankful for what you have. I know that this is hard to understand when everything has been taken away from you, but it's the truth. If God gave it to you once, he can give it to you again and this time it will be better just as he did Job.
Stop the complaining about what you don't have and go help those that don't have anything at all. If you can't give any money, give your time. If you can't give time, give clothes. If you can't give anything, you can always give a prayer every day for those that need it. Just look at it like I do, what if one of those women that you have seen on pictures and television was your mother...what would you do and what would you want others to do for her if you couldn't to her and help yourself?
"What's done in the heart, will come to the light"-K.J Swint
Stop the complaining about what you don't have and go help those that don't have anything at all. If you can't give any money, give your time. If you can't give time, give clothes. If you can't give anything, you can always give a prayer every day for those that need it. Just look at it like I do, what if one of those women that you have seen on pictures and television was your mother...what would you do and what would you want others to do for her if you couldn't to her and help yourself?
"What's done in the heart, will come to the light"-K.J Swint
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