I must say that yesterday was one of the best days of my life! When I tell you that I had a great day, I had a great day. I got up and ventured to Starbucks around 730am. When I got there I was a little overwhelmed with the projects that I had going on. I had to update a few websites and write a poem. Before I got started, I started listening to my music like I always do. As I was listening to it, I couldn't seem to get it together. It was like my mind was all over the place. Then while I was sitting there, a voice calmly said to me, "you're off and you have the whole day to get this done. Just relax and let it happen." I sat back for a minute and decided to take the advice of that voice. I started listening to my music and just enjoyed sitting at a coffee shop, listening to some good tunes. This lasted for about an hour and before you know it, it was 12pm and I had finished all my updates on all of my websites.I still had the poem to do, but I was just impressed at how much I got done by just relaxing and taking my time to get it done.
Once I finished the last website, I decided to take advantage of this relaxing day, so I went to the mall to have lunch with a very special person. I really enjoy being around them and I hadn't been spending much time with them so, this lunch was well over due. This person is ME! Yep, I had lunch by myself and it was great. It was peaceful and just so relaxing. After I ate, I then went window shopping. I just browsed around the mall a few times just going in and out of stores. I ended up spending $21 on a pair of jeans, a pair of slacks and 3 pair of argyl socks from the GAP. I needed a new pair of jeans and slacks so I figured it was the best time to get them. For those of you who know me, you know that I love to dress. Other than writing, dressing is the next best thing that I like to do. I use to be BIG into fashion. I would go to the mall every week and get an outfit and watch to match. I was single and made a pretty good salary, so I could afford to.
When the economy took a down turn and I lost my job, I couldn't shop like I use to. So, I am now back to a point where I can and yet I still choose not to. I am now married with responsibilities and I have to look out for me and my wife (and the dog-Maui). As much as I want to, my desire to make her happy and keep life good for us supercedes my desire to dress. Now don't get me wrong, I still have my swagg it's just not to the extent that it use to be and I realized that swagg is not in what you wear, but how you wear it. While I was out shopping yesterday, a lady working in the retail store I was in, just kept staring at me. After a few minutes, I decided to speak and she spoke and said that she was sorry for staring but she just admired my style. All I had on was my trusty old jeans and long sleeve plain polo and my trusty old man hat. I just smiled and told her thanks.
You have to take time to stay in-touch with yourself sometimes. When you feel that pressure on your shoulders and feel like there is nothing you can do. Put everything to the side and put yourself first and make you happy. It's hard to make someone else happy when you are misrable. I do a lot for my wife but if I am not happy when I do it, it will show and my doing won't have as much of an impact. God said there is a time and place for everything. This includes being selfish. Yesterday I was selfish because I didn't worry about anything or anybody while I was having lunch and walking around the mall. As long as you are selfish in moderation. it's ok. Yes I was selfish, but me being selfish made me a happier person therefore making life for my wife happier. So in the end, I was selfish, but not really because I made sure that the time I made for myself wouldn't get in the way with anything important.
"Make time for you and that time will make life better for you and others"-K.J Swint
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