First off, please excuse my grammar and spelling because I am blogging this morning from my blackberry. My internet service doesn't comply with my laptop and my wife took her laptop to work. I just had to use what I had.
This morning has been one of those "redefining" mornings. First off, I didn't awake this morning because I never went to sleep last night. I had some issues with my back...it was hurting! I couldn't stand up straight and when I sat down it just as bad. I tossed and turned all night. I eventually got out of bed and started writing. Luckily, I had a lot of thoughts running through my head for a new novel and some for the current novel I'm working on. After jointing down a page worth of notes, I just sat there watching television, thinking. I started thinking about how we just don't pay attention to what we really have until it isn't there anymore.
I was staring at the walls and then I notice the sun peaking through the blinds. I asked myself,"how many people have really seen the sun come up (excluding seeing it on television)?" And not just seen it come up but appreciate the beauty of it and what it does. As I was thinking about this I noticed that it was time for my wife to get up so I went into the bedroom and told her I couldn't sleep. She looked at me and said, "back hurting that bad huh?" The look she had on her face made me go into deep thought. I immediately thought about how when one thing happens, we expect other things to follow. Its like we are programmed and don't even know it. Now, I had no intentions on doing what I'm about to tell you I did, until I had this thought. I got in the bed thinking I was about to get me a few hours of sleep before I go to work.
While I was laying there, I just couldn't get that "programmed" thought out of my head. I am the type of person that I make the calls within my life; I don't let my life make the calls. After about 15 minutes, I jumped up, got my stinky work out clothes out of the hamper, put them on and went jogging. Yes, my back was hurting. Yes I hadn't had any sleep. And yes, I hadn't had anything to eat. I refuse to let life dictate what I own...me! Just because I hadn't had any sleep and my back was hurting doesn't mean that I couldn't at least try to maintain my workout.
This is usually how it happens. When we start working toward something good, something bad happens and then we fall down for a long time and then try it again and then it happens again. Well, I'm here to tell you that you have to fight through it in order to make it stick. I just started back working out and I refuse to let these hiccups stop me. And the funny thing about my run this morning is that my back felt better while I was running than when I was laying in the bed.
Don't let this hiccups stop you. Your life is a blank canvas and you hold the paint brush. You can paint any picture you want. Don't let no one paint that picture for you. Yes, its going to get tough and yes you are going to feel the pain, but once you endure it a few times, you will realize that its not that hard to bear. What can you do today to start painting your own picture and not the picture that someone else has painted for you....what can you do?
"In order to understand and appreciate success, one must first endure and embrace failure"-K.J Swint
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